Your Vigor for Life Appalls Me

"I feel that my work is but a feeble expression of something that in itself is vague and doubtful...Sometimes when I probe myself I find that my intentions in art aren't as sincere as they should be... I realize that I'm fairly good at drawing, but you see that's only because I've done so much of it, and it seems sometimes that the only reason I have stuck at it so diligently is because I have to sort of get even with society for not accepting me...Subconsciously I want to make myself immortal among men, leave my mark on the earth to compensate for social inadequacy...So I draw."